For most of life, I’ve “known” everybody, and even had many “fans“, but never any friends.
I remember every high school cafeteria lunch jumping between the baseball jocks, and the theater/choir tables, and the arts students.
I even got voted on to homecoming court.
I wanted to do and be it all.
I was mysterious and cool, because I never hung around long enough for anyone to really get to know me.
I wanted to feel a sense of belonging, and felt like if I knew everybody, I would belong.